Hello everyone. I'm new, just joined yesterday, wanted to introduce myself...I've never been a member of anything like this and have never really openly discussed my eating patterns with anyone...so this is new for me. I've actually been denying that I had an eating disorder or I probably would've done this two years ago...anyway...
One thing about me: I LOVE the beginning of a new month! Very exciting for me and a great time to set goals! I've had a really difficult time controlling my appetite for the last 2wks(which has destroyed my self esteem b/c the 2weeks b4 that I did SO GOOD) I've been ridiculously over-loaded and stressed, but I'm <*desperately*> wanting to get back on track. My goals for the month:
1. Lose 10-12lbs
2. Exercise at least 5x/wk(this is a sad goal considering I used to work out 5x or more a day)
3. Try to not be so hard on myself when I fail -at these goals or others that I set for myself- I tend to have really high expectations for myself and then tear myself to shreds when I fail to achieve my goal.
4. TO NOT BINGE!!!!
5. If/when I do binge, try to at least control what kind food I eat .Healthy, nutritious foods and not crap, junk food that makes me feel the need to 'get rid' of it. Even more than not binging, I really don't want to purge. In any form. I hate that:(
6. To feel in control and stable again.
I'm going to use a variation on the 2468 that goes like this: 2468246(wk1) 7035915(wk2) 0171057(wk3) and then repeat. indefinately:) For those who want to know, I'll privately post my menu plan for each day after I get it planned out...usually on my high cal days, most of the cals come from nuts(raw natural-not salted or honey roasted- I love them:) sooooo much<3
Sorry this is so long!! The sad thing is I could keep going forever, I've never been able to share these things with anyone, so I feel like I have a lot I want to say:) I'll be needing A LOT of inspiration and motivation...so...I'll be your cheerleader if you'll be mine! Looking forward to being a part of this, if anybody needs anything at all I'll be more than happy to do whatever is in my power to do to help you out, b/c I know it's terrible to be doing this alone.